December 31, 2024

Write Down Your Wins

 From my personal journal on April 15, 2024:

If clouds of doubt blow into your mind, pushed by a cultivated atmosphere of doing more and churning through tasks the way a full-speed train chews up miles every minute for hours on end, your journal may well be the sunbeam that breaks through, spotlighting what you did finish, the progress you achieved, the relationships that are showing signs of exciting shifts. 

Even if it looks more like a ledger than a journal, with lists of items checked, crossed, circled, chunked, and underlined -- every leader that makes a point to till the soil shared by their team, to nurture everyone walking the path toward personal and professional growth, deserves to be there when the buds start to poke through the ground and the blossoms begin to open. 

Remind yourself that you've earned many victories today, last week, and all along this year. Embrace and rejoice in those wins. They are real. That side of the ledger deserves to shine, too.

December 20, 2024

Delivered (a poem)

The pastor laid grief on my porch 
But there wasn't a corpse, 
Nor ashes, nor urn, nor candle to burn.

Twas a contract thick with Provisions
Bearing important revisions:
Weekly we gathered in Jesus' name
But now the friends who came
Would need a paid subscription

Incredulous claws 
Raking the pages to the penalty clause.
The sentence with the sentence to which I'm beholden 
For my door will stay open.

If you welcome them all,
Then the name must fall.
The church cannot be where you gather,
Wrote the pastor.

A scoff and a toss
"Not even a loss!
Cuz verse 20 in Matthew
doesn't even have you!"
As the weeks rolled over,
The gang came over,
Til the year was over,
And we turned over
Only the name.

And then the pain.
The start of a crack in my heart.
Mourning veins.
We're not disbanded
Just rebranded
And yet, the flame of change
It singes and stings.
Why does it bring this ache?
What did the king take?
Not our circle nor spirit nor schedule nor supper,
But chests are seized and squeezed,
A sniffle, a wheeze
And tears make clear what the eye sees
We are now "other."

Drop us from your directory
But don't you dare lecture me
About preparing for battle
Against what? Empathy?
How can my neighbors lose your favor
When you never came here?
To us, they were strangers,
But they were bold and grew braver.
We are hosts and curators
For question and challenge and
The fiercest of prayers.
We reach and we pull
To find Jesus in the weeds of us,
Uprooting thorns that we have worn,
Finally seeing the cuts we've been bleeding.
Scars are addressed, wounds are dressed, 
And we are filthy kintsugi
So thoroughly blessed.

If this is your course
To force a divorce,
Know the sorrow that you sow.
But you never had dominion here.
We refuse to sit in fear.
What this house offers
Can't land in your coffers.
Hot takes and guacamole
Make our dinners holy.

We break bread with the broken;
We never vet here.
Our doors and arms are always open,
Welcome those we've never met here.
We don't need to collect your token.
The Spirit is set here.
And the path to the Lord is spoken:
It takes together
To get here.

December 18, 2024

The L.A.S.E.R. fund explained


Greetings, everyone.

You've reached the blog of Paul Pinza, the Dean of Language Arts at Chabot College. I joined the college in June 2023 after spending ten years as an administrator in public high school districts. I'm also currently an ESL (English as a Second Language) instructor at the Hayward Adult School.

As a leader in public education, one of the great responsibilities we have also presents one of the greatest challenges: how to build a caring, responsive relationship with your team that models what you want all your faculty, classified professionals, and directors to build with our students. One of the pernicious obstacles that you have to work around is this: you technically can't give them anything.

The principle makes sense: taxpayer dollars are funding schools, colleges, programs. While there may be items available through these institutions (Chabot has a fantastic Gladiator Resource Hub that offers free groceries and school supplies along with referrals to countless other services), as soon as one person takes a little money from the fund and turns it into something for one other person, now you're talking about private gifts paid by public monies. Big no-no. As in, criminally liable no-no.

So while corporations in Silicon Valley can have gourmet meals prepared by master chefs and served to their employees nearly every day, the Language Arts division at Chabot cannot buy their tireless faculty and instructional assistants and administrative assistants donuts or snacks or lunch, even once. Because that would be a gift -- or a series of gifts -- from public funds. Nor can the college directly offer scholarships to students who have earned their AA in English or Spanish or Sign Language, have been accepted as a transfer to a university, and still need several hundred dollars in aid to cover the books, the parking, and all the other expenses that follow you when you go for a Bachelor's degree. Private gift, public money. Off limits.

From the student side of this equation, scholarships are given out by schools, districts, and colleges all the time because they use a separate foundation. In the K-12 space, that's often a Home and School Club or a Parent-Teacher-Student Association. Some districts have also put foundations in place that are run separately by volunteers in the community. Chabot is blessed to have the Friends of Chabot College Foundation that annually supplies thousands of dollars of scholarships for our students. It is managed by a separate board, independent of the college's administration and the district's Board of Trustees. And it relies on donations and fundraisers and endowments to continuously support the students' scholarships. This is why 70% of your LASER fund donations will go to the Foundation for designated Language Arts awards and scholarships for students.

But these foundations are also restricted against giving money to other adults. The rules around non-profit foundations are very tight in this area. How can a principal or a dean support their staff under those constraints? The teachers have to donate the money themselves. It's true, in schools across the country, if there is even a modest holiday party, the employees are paying for it themselves. And if we can be super honest for just a moment: that assumes that folks have the extra money to donate to this cause. Can we think of any public educators or public school or community college employees who may struggle to make ends meet in the Bay Area on their salary? Do all of them come to mind? Meta and Google don't have to ask that of their staff because they make profits and are free to spend some of those profits on their employees, as they should. 

I'm twelve years into the administrator phase of my career in public education. I have always loved and admired the faculty, the fellow administrators, and the variety of other professionals I've worked with. I stepped into leadership because I believed that I could impact communities, on a generational scale, by supporting the teachers and leaders and assistants and advisors that are the life-blood of education. I try daily to model an inclusive, generous, and caring management style that lifts people up and keeps spirits high through the grinding struggles of a long semester. And this paradox - that I cannot show the staff the same love in the same way as the corporate neighbors around me that drive up the rents my teachers have to pay - it kills me. It frustrates me to no end. 

So our Language Arts division has established a co-curricular account within the college, similar to the way clubs create their own account through a high school's ASB. Similar to the foundation, we take no direct money from the general fund; every single dollar is raised ourselves. This gives us more freedom to spend the money. And I'm not looking to put my division on a yacht in the Bay, folks. I'd like to provide snacks at my monthly division meetings, sympathy cards when someone loses a loved one, perhaps even a peer-nominated employee recognition program. Small, simple acts of gratitude, celebration, and care. None of this can be supported by our general fund, so 30% of your LASER donation will go into our co-curricular account so we can love on our people just a little bit.

Yes, your LASER donation is actually going into two separate accounts. But I absolutely believe that these two objectives are intertwined; we empower our college to support students best when we support our professionals in the best way we can. The two feed off each other. I explored creating a business account on one of the online platforms, but they want to take a percentage of every transaction. And I don't want your money going anywhere other than to the students and those who support them. This is why the QR code goes to my personal Venmo: so that I can divide the money between the two accounts. In order to maintain accountability, I'll personally send you two letters for tax deduction purpose - one for the Friends of Chabot College, and the other for the division's co-curricular account. Each letter will show the precise amount that went to each fund. You'll know exactly where each dime landed. And of course, you can add a note to direct your donation how you see fit. 70/30 is our default, but you can customize that. Just ask and we will honor your wishes.

I appreciate your taking the time to learn more about our needs and how we hope to fill them through your support. Please feel free to reach out to me if you have any questions at all. And when you're ready, you can donate here

Thank you so much for your support. 

Paul C. Pinza

ppinza@chabotcollege.edu